@mametsuko Oh mame

I am pretty sure nobody tell you off for practising language with them. Like genuienly. Taking the effort of language of learning (yet another) language and really giving your best to integrate is really great. Pretty sure people around would totally support that.
Also generally to learn a language its best to use it in practice. Also a fellow human can also help you with pronounciation of words way better than ChatGPT.
You could maybe to some sort of coffee-table or something and just get to talk to people (in dutch) about the most mundane things. Also if you struggle with talking to people to ask about let aety help you get some opportunity going.
You are doing well mame just keep on working

You will "git gud" eventually.