I just got thinking again a little. Nothing bad just stuff in general.

It is kinda interesting to me how my hobbies did shift over like the last year since I live alone and have to keep a household all on my own. I guess doing the University stuff also did not really help that one

If you would have asked me two years back on what I love doing it would have been:

• reading (mostly light novels),
• doing stuff on my blog (mostly writing reviews on light novels or do some cool article type stuff)
• playing tabletop rpg

now I do like reading but it always kinda was confined to one specific space for me. The commute to work. I love reading on the train. Its not like you will have anything better to do on like a 20-30 min train ride anyway. Also it was easy to do. There was always a seat free on that train it was not overly full most of the time.

nowadays I obviously also commute to work by train and the time it takes is kinda samey as well. Just circumstances are different. I did drop off reading during university a lot since I had other stuff in mind.

The new commute allows me to read still for sure its just not as comfy. Though that sure does have do with the time I travel on. I usually travel together with all the kids going to school so the train is usually pretty full but there is still space left.

Though I am standing in the train to work like every day other than on school holidays it is still quite easy to read something in there. I have done it with books, manga, my e-reader.

The way back can be different since that one tends to be super full for the fact that only half the train is in service that time. I dunno why, I hate it. Sardine can here we go.

But you I generally felt less drive to read stuff. Maybe I just cannot decide what I actually wanna read very often. I still very much enjoy it still when I find the right book. (Even missed my stop by being too much into a book one day lol). I just find it harder to pick up stuff to read lately.

The blog pretty much died in 2024 where my university stuff got really complicated and lots tests and stuff where occupying my every free time. I never really picked it up after that. The drive is kinda lost for me here. Sometimes I did even think if its worth keeping around if its not used anymore. Maybe having a blog on a niche thing like light novels is kinda a bad idea? Dunno what I am gonna do about it.

I was mostly reviewing books at the time and I feel off that. Different reasons really. Firstly I don't really think people wanna read me gushing about Volume 10 of Light Novel X I loved to read but its all just about the cool stuff that happened in the book and 90% “spoilers”.

I still love gushing over books to others for sure. Just ask rick who I generally share a lot of my enthusiasm on what I am reading atm.

There is some other projects I always wanted to tackle but ended up being to much work for me. Like putting together that Light Novel Database for having a high-quality source for my niche. I fell off that project real quick. Its just too much stuff and getting that quality data to put up is a nightmare.

I have no idea by now what to do with the blog really. Its just there for now. Waiting to be filled with stuff.

The TRPG stuff I actually very much enjoyed as it was going on. It helped me keep my sanity during most of university. Though I did eventually had to drop it for the same reasons the blog got abandoned.

Running sessions in a niche TRPG like the konosuba TRPG is a heck of a lot of work for sure. There is so much stuff you have to do yourself since there is not really any content for the game, being niche and all. Yeah it is based on a bigger Japanese TRPG, being Arianrhod 2E but having to translate from Japanese is really exhausting after some time, even with the translation helps I made for the monsters and items.

I genuinely love playing that game. The group I have is super nice and creative and we are having a great time. They inspire me all the time to think up cool scenarios and challenges for them to go through by just tossing out random ideas.

I really enjoy seeing them and their characters grow and overcome the baddies and challenges I throw at them.

But getting those sessions ready man. Its a lot of work. Writing the story, plothooks, dungeon design, encounters... And since I am using a VTT and want to be kinda pretty there is also basic map design and tokens to think off, looking up images online...

I know my player will not be mad at me for anything I do or not do. As long as I have some story to tell and some basic maps all is fine for them really. The rest is imaginary right?

But they are giving their best to make their characters the best they can be so I wanna to a good GMing right?

But ever since dropping / pausing the game it was incredibly hard for me to pick up all that work again. I just gotten busier. But I atleast wanted to give them a proper send off for konosuba TRPG. The story is there by now but there is still some blockage going on with me finishing the rest really.

Though at least Yen Press announcing the Advanced rule book did ignite some excitement again to finish this and maybe move on for good to some other TRPG after it. Like Log Horizon TRPG or the Goblin Slayer TRPG.

I really hope to finish this one up over the coming weeks. Especially since I broke my sewing machine and its out of commission in the repair shop right now.

And yes I do still enjoy doing stuff. Its just different than before really.

The sewing machine has a reason. I really got more into sewing stuff after moving out. Its (mostly) relaxing for to do. If I am not beating myself over stuff I did wrong, especially the broken machine that was avoidable...

I have no problem spending almost my whole day sewing, though I really kinda hate cutting out stuff. It fills me with some joy seeing something I dreamed of having come together piece by piece. Wearing the stuff also incredibly fun and rewarding.

I REALLY would love to do some sewing right now. I am itching to finish the maid dress and especially that Lolita skirt I am working on. I will look amazing! Cannot do it though for obvious reasons. I hope to get my machine back soon though I did not hear anything from the shop really. Though I did bring to there right before christmas, so I dunno if they even got around to it...

I also really came to like taking pics. Like I suck at camera work for sure. But it allowed me to capture some really great memories to put up for myself on that cork-board. Always there to remind of happy times and stuff when I am feeling down.

It also allows me to express myself in crossdressing better and get an outside look at the outfits I am trying out all the time. It really helps to get a sense what actually suits me, what I actually want to wear and share my passion.

There is also some stuff that has me kinda “meh” right now. I am consuming a lot of video-content from youtube and sometimes I do wonder if doing something else might be a better idea.

But tbh I come home from work and do my cooking for the day and then I have like 2 hours to do stuff when its not a friday, the weekend or vacation. Watching some videos to relax a little is nice there. And there is always something cool and fresh to watch. I could do something else sure.

But I don't really feel like reading at home, gaming is out of the question since I sometimes can loose myself in a game waaaay to much ending going to sleep and my sewing I like to do when I have more time on hand really. I guess I just got waay to busy.

Still better than doomscrolling the news I guess. Also I do generally enjoy the videos I watch. Though I might need to get better what I pick sometimes.

I just should not looked at the news today.

We might have a very rough week coming up in Europe. Enemies inside and outside (now including the US) kust waiting for us to crumble... and then what?

The US economy sure won't be happy when it can't really export its tech anymore leading to a massive market crash for sure.

And then we have putin, orban and the others just waiting.

We will see what, if any, answer the EU can cook up together.

We will need to answer but everything we do will escalate a conflict. Either inside the EU for not standing up for ourselves or outside by actually starting a war (trade or otherwise) with the US.

And America sure won't stop orange man they gave unlimited power