@desea Sure it is not. Though I would ne lying if I did not hear a Trans-Person being haunted by their former self sometimes. (Though I might have read something wrong in your posts as well)
Finding the right words can be hard sometimes
But I generally don't we (trans or not) should let ourselves by the negative thoughts. Its easy to spiral and only see the negative in any given situation. Many people like that.
Me as an introvert I tend to loathe stuff more than I should as well. Especially after a social interaction that maybe could have gone better.
Atleast I learned its better to not eat stuff too much into myself.