Like I am making 45k € a year before taxes and thats quite a lot for mey especially seeing what my brother used to make as well, its a bit better now. I can sustain myself on my own. And I have something

Which a big for me. I never would have imagined to dream to go to college and that much with the prospect of making of making 56k € a year as time goes on.

Since I also work for the state I get other perks as well. I do not pay for pension insurance or work loss insurance like other workers and I enjoy a very safe job. Other than the government being overthrown I cant loose my job.

I also work to get a nice pension after work life. 71.75% of my last salary if you work for enough years. (Atleast 40)

And yes I do actually work more hours for this every week. 41h/week.

So one part of me thinks I deserve this and I work for this. The other part scolds me for being this selfish.

I would like it for others to have it better than me as well. Obviously I had luck and opportunity on my side to be this fortunate. And Die Linke is really the only party trying to change life for most of us the better.

Electing them for though would lead to an actual pay decrease. Not because I am so rich or something. My income-bracket is not that high that I would pay more taxes. It would certainly be less.

Its about the pension insurance. That would easily cut my pay by 10%. So to make it fair the state would need to pay me more aswell. But that would happen I dunno. Maybe I am scared it would though logic says otherwise.

And acting even more against my own interest is nothing I am able to do atm. That and other issues always led to stray a little more conservative in my views.

But I might be wrong and only try to do "better" by greenwashing like using train and bike where I can. Telling myself I am doing something to make.stuff better. When the solution my lie somewhere else entierly?

Like I don't see capitalism as inherently bad. Only unregulated one is real bad. But when you tighten the regs around and make it fairer it is an intrinsic motivator work and be dilligent.

Might just be my bias since I am obviously on the side that is on the "winning" side of capitalism...

Thank for coming to listen to my ramblings...

Brain is giving me stuff to think again. So I guess some venting is needed yet again for me. Feel free to skip if you not wanna read such stuff.

You know there is votes coming up in the Länd. I am sitting here and musing about things. Who to vote is one of those things.

But tbh the stone kicked with the division on di-day. I read some saddening stuff where people trample over the effort that is di-day (Digital Indipendance Days).

Saying that going from one Oligarch to the next won't fix anything. And this type of colonialism and Amerika=bad won't get us more sovereign at all. And the only real solution is (as is often the case with people on the left-side of the political spectrum) abolish capitalism or atleast socialize infrastructure and taking away the server farms from bad european tech-oligarchs.

(kinda funny to think about that was posted on chaos.social an instance hosted over on hetzner)

I do kinda wonder why structures like CCC never built a socialist data center. Likely short on cash would be my guess as these things are expensive.

But generally I think this totally misses thep point of what di-day really set out to be: Getting normal people from GAFAM and into better european alternatives.

Is maybe a bit nationalist to assume that european stuff is automatically better? sure. But enforcement of our rules and ethics surely is easier on an european thingie.

This whole thing certainly feels like the whole "hitting someone over the head because they fucked up before and try to make it better again"

Do these critics really forget how they themselves got into self-hosting and decentralization (likely?)

I can speak for myself atleast I guess. I started out with using Linux since microsoft has let me down more often. And Privacy is not a thing. Also linux seemed more techy and in control which I liked.

I did not start self-hosting for a few years. It started with me wanting to do a blog lol and having a cloud of my own.

Social Media came later with a mastodon-instance at first since I heard of this cool new techie thing social-media.

But come back to the point... I don't you will find much success with moving away from GAFAM with going from 0 to 100 in an instant. Taking small steps at first like di-day tries to do is the better approach I think.

Talking to a way more left friend about this got me think even more. As she was more sympathetic to the critics.

Got me thinking again about how far left I would wanna vote for the Länd. I am generally very biased towards our greens here. Although they are more conservative than green really. Still they did a good job generally in leading the country for 15 years. Though a bit more green would be nice.

I never have seen myself going more to the left to die Linke eventually. There is more stuff rubbing me the wrong way.

But maybe thats just me being biased. You know I come from your typical migrant-ish workers family.

My family came here as "Spätaussiedler" a special arrangement from the german government for people with german heritage who lived in the East-block of Europe or the Sowjetunion.

I was given many opportunities by this for sure. I mean hell I would not be here where I am without all the work that the system put into people like me and my parents. (though technically I was born in germany

Kindergarden and public schools were the ones teaching me and my siblings german lul.

I wanna say that some of my success also stems from me working dilligently to get somewhere learning as much as I could getting good grades finishing an apprenticeship and going to college as well.

But maybe thats a typical Spätaussiedler thing that all they reached was made possible by them working hard and dilligent.

I do think that as well generally. But I never try to forget the help and assistance that made all this integration possible..

Sadly this thinking makes this group very susceptible to be against "those other migrants" very much. Mostly people that came here after 2015. Seeing them as different even though the story really isn't.

Its just that the people from say syria were not given the same chances and opportunities and sometimes treatment they needed. Maybe resulting in todays mess just a little.

Sometimes I am thinking about if I "deserve" what I have. One side generally says: "sure! you worked so hard for it you deserve it!" while the other says: "You owe most of what you have to the efforts others went through to make this possible"

Be that society by integrating or my brother starting to work at 16 so we have more money at home.

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