@jsstaedtler psst... hey You don't get to decide how worthy other people think you are.
I believe in you.
@jsstaedtler You are deserving of a happy, fulfilling life.
I can understand lacking energy, but saying you don't deserve the opportunities you want is a self-destructive lie.
@jsstaedtler The machine cannot repair itself. That's what technicians are for.
In other words, therapists.
Hope you find one that's adequate for your needs. Good luck!